Ryan

10:34 pm: Madagascar
A great relaxing week it has been!

Monday I didn't really do anything except not do my last bit of school work, and then watched Harry potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban a few times.

Tuesday was alot of fun, I watched harry potter again then that night I went to Ali's voice recital, and she was awesome! Afterwards I went with her and her parent's to coldstone for ice cream...I LOVE.

Wednesday was probably my favorite day of the week. First I went with Ali to the southside, and we looked around and window shopped and I picked up an old silverchair album from Dave's Music Mine for 3.99. Since we went kinda late, all the shops were closing so we were gonna share a desert at the Cheesecake Factory, but there was a half hour wait...so we just went to Pagey's Ice cream right down the strip in the soutside. After there we went to the baldwin twnship carnival, and we lost all our money on the money wheel..so in an effort to have fun with no money we just drove around, and then finally settled in a park at like 10. We sat there just talking and swinging on the swings and stuff for like an hour and i loved it. So then we just drove around after that a little bit longer, cause i can't get enough of her..and then I took her home.

Thursday was a really bad day because i worked 4-9 and then just sat home til like 12. in that little 3 hour period i just sat and thought about how I'm leaving in 3 months, and I tried not to get too upset...but it really hasn't set in yet that I'm leaving so I guess thats good for now.

Today was the senior run-the-hall-day which was sort of stupid but i guess it had a sort of sentimental meaning behind it...I guess! Afterwards iwent out to brunch with nikiya and den, and then went home slept for 4 hours then me nikiya and den all went to see madagascar which was the cutest movie. Ali is at her school's prom tonight and though i trust her I'm still bitter. WHATEVER

09:19 pm: Hi everyone...it has certainly been a long time since I've put some time towards making an entry. Alot has happened since my last entry, and I think I'll write about it! (sorta...)

First off: College.

I ended up deciding on the University of Hartford, in Connecticut..and I'm gonna be majoring in Musical Theatre which will give me a Bachelor in Fine Arts. They gave me an annual scholarship of $12,000, and with state grants all together I am getting just under half tuition (around 16000). So, I think that this is going to be a really great opportunity for me...getting out of the burg, and making the next step in my life a big one. From what I have heard, they are much similar to the University of Cincinnati (which was my first choice)in the sense that vocals are the most important, followed by acting, and dancing comes up in the rear. They have one of the best Music programs in the country, and though I think acting is what I need the most help on, at least they are known for one good thing!

On another exciting subject, I only have 2 days left of High School and that really makes me love life. Seriously, I just can't wait for it to end!

At this current moment, I feel like everything in my life is going as it should...for the most part I'm happy, I'm feeling motivated and successful, and I feel like I really know who my good friends are and I love my boo, Ali. I haven't yet thought of how hard it is going to be to leave everyone in 3 months..which is so soon...but I know that I can't get hung up on that because everyone has to grow up, and move on at sometime in there life. For a while i felt like if I moved away, everyone was just gonna disappear and I would never see them again. Then I thought to myself that could never happen because if I mean as much to them as they mean to me, we will always keep in contact. Ok maybe I'm freaking out a little just because I've never lived more than 10 hours away from home for two weeks...and this is 3/4 of a year 9 hours away. It is a complete life change. Another thing, I haven't even thought of leaving Ali...I have a feeling that is going to be the hardest just because my feelings are so strong for her. I AM A SAP.

For anyone that hasn't known, my cel phone number is now 412.523.7466...you probably all know if you even care to because i've had it for over 4 months, but hey! I haven't made a "real" entry in 5 months!

Back on the note of Hartford, I'm actually going up there this weekend...saturday-tuesday. It's my orientation, so I will be doing all scheduling and meeting people and I even get to stay over night in one of the dorms! WOOT WOOT


Well, I think this is a good enough entry for now...I guess I could try to keep up to date with this...and by now no one reads my journal anyways! FUCK IT.

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First time I've updated LJ in about 2 months weee, maybe I will more often I don't know.

11:08 pm: University of Cincinnati: College-Conservatory of Music 16/670+ not me
So friday around 1:00, after a bad day at school...my father and I left for Cincinnati!

We technically didn't even leave pittsburgh until around 2:30 because we had to go downtown and to the bank and to Giant Eagle and such to work a few things out. But anyhow...I used my time with my father to introduce him to my iPod, so i basically gave him the run-down of how everything on it works, and to my surprise he was actually kinda interested. I was really tired on the ride, so I tried sleeping but didn't get much sleep because everyone knows how horrible it is to sleep in a car...so we got there around 7:30 and went out to dinner and then I made it a statement that I had to be IN BED by 10. And I was.


The Next morning...

I woke up around 6:45, and did my hair and got dressed and then we left for CCM about 7:25 and the meeting started at 7:45. I was pumped. So we had our little meeting then the dance call started at 8:30, and from 8:30 to 10:00 I was dancing...and I have to say it was really nice because it really woke me up and pumped me for the rest of my day. At noon I had a stupid music theory test, which if was the final factor on letting me in, I wouldn't get in because I did so horrid.

So that was over around 12:45...and I had more down time til about 2:00...AND THEN...

The Audition:

Overall, I was really honestly pleased with myself. That's alot for me to say because I'm really hard on myself when it comes to auditions and such, and for once I can actually say that I thought I nailed the audition. I didn't mess up on any words, didn't screw up timing, didn't squeak on any notes, and I walked in and gained a sense of confidence (which I never have).

So, even though I thought I did awesome...the fact is it is the single harded school to get into in the country for musical theatre. Last year they had a quota to fill of 25 students at most, and they only decided they needed 16. Oh yeah, and last year around 670 students auditioned. Like I said, I like to think positive, but I know I'm not amazing and I would need a true miracle to get in.


Enough about that...the drive home was nice for a while, I slept for 4 hours..then I had to help keep my dad awake (he was getting tired from driving and the roads were getting worse...so I was kinda nervous). We got home at around 8 and I watched the first half of Lost in translation and ended up in bed by 11:30!

Sunday: For the first time in a week I got to sleep in, so i woke up about 10:30 and watched Lost in Translation again and finished it...then I had my last performance of grease today at 2:00. It was really sad I have to say, because for the past 4 weeks I saw these 19 people nearly every single day and night. I became really good friends with Johnny Angel (of the Halo's), and Jon Burnett (the weatherman)...and I have to say I'm gonna miss them most because they were really supportive of me when I had my audition yesterday, and seemed concerned and it was nice to have them take an interest in me.

After Grease my mother, father, Officer Bob, and I went over my voice teacher Maria's for the steeler game...we made it fun, but well ehm...'nough said.

And now I'm sitting here not knowing whether I should do my calculus homework now, or tomorrow. Tomorrow my sis is comin' home from New York, so I am getting out early to and pick her up which is kind of exciting.



PS: Cincinnati said NO LONGER than 4 weeks until I know if I have been accepted...that's like...TOMORROW (sort of).

10:37 pm: Grease is the word
These past 3 weeks have been crazy for me, sorry for lack of updates, and cutting myself off from the rest of the world.

For two weeks straight I had rehearsal everyday 2-1030...it was insane and tiring. Then, this past Thursday, the curtain went up. It was exciting and it's kinda relieving to know that even though there are points of the show that could use some help, overall it was successful. It's running through January 23rd, I think I'll be sad when it's over. Yesterday's show was thrilling:

The curtain went up at 7:30, which was when there were 4 seconds left on the clock at the steeler game. One of the stage hands set up a mini TV backstage so that we could watch the game while backstage, and when they missed the field goal...the audience broke up in cheering, which was kinda reassuring (sarcastic) because they were so focused on our show. But then since I'm not in the show much, I was able to watch the overtime period and everything. That's the first steeler game I have been able to watch in like a month and a half (So damn busy!).

Other NFL News:

Patriots over Colts 20-3! What the hell is that about, all week the radio was estimating a huge landslide in favor of the colts, saying after the upset in Miami (Patriots got killed), NE wouldn't stand a chance. All I gotta say is that if the Steelers play like they did yesterday I won't be surprised if the Patriots shut them out.

Golden Globes were very disappointing tonight...Sarah Jessica Parker didn't get the golden globe for Best TV Actress, which was probably the biggest upset for me. In my opinion sex and the city was 10 times better than Desparate Housewives, and the woman that got the Globe was SO much better when she was Lois Lane In Superman (w/ Dean Cain as Superman).

So, in less than 6 days will be the day of fortelling. University of Cincinnati Musical Theatre audition on January 22nd. Kinda scary, and nerve-racking...to think that my future will be decided in the next week. I have everything ready for the audition, I just am going to take monday and tuesday (my day's off from the show) to really get my shit together for the audition. There isn't any playing around when it comes to UC....last year they took 33 students out of over 650 auditionees.

A Few side notes:

Finally, my parents have decided to change phone plans...and we're going to be switching to Verizon using a national plan. I was looking at phones today and I really want a picture/flip phone, they just seem so professional lol and I love them.

My obsession with the Olsen twins is sorta resurfacing..I had a little dream about them and it's all coming back to me again. They once again are gracing the desktop of my computer lol.




I miss everyone that I haven't talked to in a while, especially if I see you alot...after this week, I'M FREE.

09:38 pm:

These past 2 weeks or so have been very hectic, but I have enjoyed it:-)...

So I guess counting today there are less than 2 weeks before my University of Cincinnati audition... wow...exciting?  That kinda makes me nervous to think that next year will be decided for me in the next two weeks.  Honestly, sometimes I don't think I'm cut out for this business.  I mean lets face it:  I'm far from amazing. I can kind of act, can't dance, and my voice progressively progressively gets worse as the days pass.  Now more than ever I have been considering a major change, it's just I know this is what I want to do...and I don't want to forget that. 

I just wish I could do what I wanted and sort of be good at it.  I guess my biggest problem is that I'm never really prepared, and I often freeze and pull back.  It's a good thing I realize these faults, but usually when you realize something you correct it...but I just dwell on it. 

On a sort of exciting note:  In feb I'm going up to NYC BY MYSELF for 2 college auditions, and I'm seeing hopefully 4 shows while I'm up there!  (depending on time and cash flow...)  Wicked, Brooklyn, Dirty Rotten Scoundrels (If it's even open yet), and La Cage aux folles.

Today was a really weird day, I did that 'Gimme the Mic' shit and sucked (my voice cracked) then I watched 'Troy' and cried (hmm..) then went out to robinson again cause i left my coat there, and now I'm sitting here waiting for my parent's movie to be over so we can all play a family game of 'Scene It?' hahaha.

Other than the whole New York news, I bought Troy Yesterday and then I bought a live recording of the show 'Dreamgirls' and it's awesome.  Billy Porter is my new obsession, he can sing higher than girls lol.

I'll make sure to inform everyone about colleges as the time approaches...but enough updating for one entry I think

<3Ryan

04:32 pm: So after a 2 month Hiatus, it is finally time to update livejournal again. Refreshing for the most part I must say because it's nice to have people read my thoughts sometimes. Intriguing enough? Lets continue.

Since College always seems to be the popular topic, I'll discuss it. I ended up applying to 7 schools and I auditioned to 1 and was accepted thus far. Point Park. I don't want to go there, but It's almost inevitable that I am going to end up there. I don't like to think of my thought process as negative, I just like to look at things from a realistic perspective. The fact is, when it comes to Singing and Acting and such, I have an okay voice, and I can act...but regardless i'm nothing amazing and that's what schools are looking for. 5 of my 7 schools make up part of the top 15 Musical Theatre programs in the country. I guess bad lack of judgement on my part, with my head in the clouds, but the point is I can almost expect not to get in. Just watch: Chances are I won't be accepted into any of them in the end.

This doesn't mean I'm not going to prepare though, because every experience is a learning experience in my opinion, and this is the perfect time to learn. In regards to preparation, I'm not exactly doing very well. Finding 2 songs that in 2 minutes perfectly display your voice to the judges isn't the easiest task in the entire world I might add. Oh, and don't forget the monologues too...any actor's nightmare.

I guess if anyone's reading this by now you can tell that I haven't had the best day lol. At work, I was sent out into the lot for the entire 8 hours, and everyone knows how cold it is lately.

Other Issues: This past week was the chorus concert and as usual the students were ridiculous. Chorus thus far has been a complete joke, and it's not a very enriching environment either...I can't deal with these people!

Last night I was an idiot and bought something so then I didn't have any money to go out and my mom got pissed and told me I wasn't allowed to go out anyways; that really backed up my reasoning for my unadulterated loathing towards them.

Also: I think I'm going to have a bad week in school because i missed 3 days of this past week, and I'm supposed to have 2 exams on monday.

10:22 pm: If anyone her has had to deal with fucking college applications and has been stressed over college stuff in general, or is currently feeling like it's endless....please post here so I don't feel like I'm the only one having a hard time working on everything and sorting out the confusion


Thanks for compliances.

06:03 pm: 18!
It's my birthday!

12:36 am: Wow
I just got this new Livejournal app that makes updating really simple!

I like!

09:41 pm: Audition for Mainstage
So, tonight I had my audition for mainstage. We'll get to that later....first, the rest of my week!

Monday: Day 1 of the 3rd week of school, I was in a weird mood and really kinda cranky..I was up til 1:30 doing homework...the slacking is starting all ready. I prepared a song on sunday for Audition Prep at YPI, and I performed it well or at least I thought. Everyone else seemed to think I sounded good so that's cool.

Tuesday: Same as day 1, except today I performed a monologue and a song, they both went well...then I had the primary audition for Titanic and The mainstage shows, I screwed up on my monologue, but did awesome on the song..so I got a callback for both. Before the Audition me and this really pretty girl Victoria watched School House Rock, she's hott.

Wednesday: Today after YPI I had my first lesson with my new voice teacher, she really impressed me...by just hearing me talk she was able to tell me what my highest note was i could sing. She told me I need to connect to my pieces when I sing more...I'm not being animated enough, and I'm ending up being just bloody boring. She made me think alot so i went home and practiced in the mirror for an hour lol.

Thursday: At YPI I had voice and speech and i started learning how to properly talk! We started with "plosive" sounds...b, p, k, t...and then we did wris"ts" which is actually kinda hard. lol listen to me Mr. I know how to talk right! I was really bad tonight, I went CD shopping again and bought 4 more CD's...that's 7 CD's in 8 days...eek. But I love music so I don't care.

This week was really bad for me...I started slacking big time on my work and stuff...like waiting to start homework til 11 at night and staying up til 1:30, I mean I'm not tired it's just irresponsible. I'm just glad i was able to handle everything this week! Because with these auditions, and preparing all these songs, it's been hard still getting into the swing of things. My social life has needed a big cut, like I know I can't go out every night of the week anymore. I mean, I guess it's hard, but it's for a good reason.

Ok, so today...Today started off good..I woke up 10 minutes earlier and had bowl of Honey Bunches of Oats, and then stopped at the marathon for a French Vanilla, now becoming a daily tradition. I got to school after the bell had rung, but I made it to homeroom before the late bell rang. Today was basically a blow off day for the most part...no big homework assignments, just a quiz in ms. shit's class....and 2 quiz's on monday.

YPI: Today I had a master class with someone named Danny Herman who was on broadway in contact and he was one of the founders directors of PMT, and I really liked his class..it was kind of an audition because he is the director of the Main Stage season this year and is currently casting the shows.

So after YPI my audition was scheduled for 5:50, but I didn't end up going in until around 7, which is normal because of questions from the directors and stuff:

For Todays audition, I was really prepared. You needed 2 contrasting songs, a ballad and an uptempo, and I had both, and I knew them and they were memorized. You needed a 1 minute monologue, and I had one that I knew really well, and last night I finally got my headshot developed (me with long hair...!) and I retyped my resume. This was (I think) the first time I have ever been very prepared for an audition and I was ready for it.

And at 7:00, I went in. First I introduced myself, then gave my music to the Pianist. They said they wanted me to sing first. So, I sang...and they stopped me half way through and told me i was trying too hard, and to just relax. So I started over, and I was even more worked up now...and i started speeding on the tempo and started perspiring and i just kept getting nervous, but i tried to make it more real this time. So after i finished Danny (The Director) told me it was a little better, but i was trying to hard to make it seem real..and at this point i really started to get comfortable because of how nice he was approaching the subject. So I sang it again and he told me that it was better, but he thought part of the problem was the song wasn't appropriate for me...so he said I am going to get another chance to sing and he scheduled me another call-back on sunday. So then he had me read my monologue. This is where The Audition went from ugly to beautiful. I read it and halfway through he stopped me and told me that judging from how I had sang and acted, he had no clue I was as good of an actor as I had just displayed..he really stressed how impressed he was. He then explained that I'm a really good actor, and I have a great voice..I just need to learn to bring them together and character sing...as well as when I dance. So I was really upset walking out...and the Co-director...Bobby said to me..."Ryan, just think about this...

You know your good whenever we spend as much time on you as we have, it's when we don't spend anytime on you that you suck."

Then Danny said he'd like to hopefully work with me in the future and work on me connecting my voice and acting together.


And that was my audition! Overall, I could say I thought it was really great...I just really got bogged down by being stopped.


So tonight I had to call off work for an audition, tomorrow i have to call off work for another audition, and Sunday! yet another audition I have to call off work for. I honestly couldn't complain because though I'm not getting any money, I'm doing what I love and that's all that matters. Tomorrow my audition will determine how big of a role i shall get in the student production of Titanic, and on Sunday...back to Danny for the best audition I'll ever have.

So that audition really worked me up so now I'm sitting on my computer with my guitar, and I don't think I plan on moving until later because then I'm gonna watch "The Girl Next Door"...my dad rented it for me.


This is the first time I've updated in almost 4 weeks I think...Hi

Love Love Love Ryan

03:18 am: Kill Bill vol. 2 movie review
Ok, I saw Kill Bill vol. 2 tonight, and it was so fucking amazing. My new favorite Quentin Tarantino...ladies and gentle the obsession is back.

Seriously I like this movie better than Pulp Fiction, and that never wasn't my favorite Tarantino film. It's just that good and Kill bill vol. 2 is just that much better.

Compared to Kill Bill vol. 2, Kill Bill vol. 1 sucks a whole lot, the pace, the action everything is so much different..and i almost actually wanted to cry at the ending which was a strange feeling for me considering the whole movie plot.

Today at Starbucks, when my sister was singing, I had this really good Passion Herbal Tea..it was like a raspberry orange lemonade and it was awesome. But it still doesn't beat my Iced Venti Chai Latte!

05:24 pm: I haven't updated since before I left for Cincinnati, but i don't feel like it either, so I'll make it a quickie.

-Cincinnati was fab, I loved CCM
-I saw the Secret Window with J. Depp, and i love him more everytime i see him
-I'm not Gay
-i saw the exorcist and the village at the drive-in, but I thought neither of the two were very scary at all
-I Still have yet to see Kill Bill vol. 2..which kills me
-In Cincity I bought 3 pairs of shoes:-D
-My Brother has a son now, I'm an Uncle to Ethan Joseph Mikita
-School starts in like 2 weeks

So now that I'm an Uncle, I really would love to be an awesome cool role model Uncle Vince...seriously he's the best guy I know...he's awesome in every way to me and I'd love to mean as much as he does to me to someone else

Speaking of Uncle Vince, My family and I are going to visit him and my grandmother in Texas in Late November/Early December for a few weeks and I can't wait because I haven't seen him in nearly 2 years.

Okay enough update for now.

Oh by the way my acoustic guitar fell on it's head and cracked it the fuck off. so now I have a 2 piece Acoustic guitar set.

07:09 pm: Five details about your appearance right now.
1) new hair
2) new hair
3) my favorite with and blue hat
4) new hair
5) big long tube socks

Five things you did today (in order).
1) woke up at 1 <3
2) watched some family matters
3) went to work
4) stole a Naked Health food drink (very good)
5) drank a glass of milk after work


Five groups/artists you listened to yesterday.
1) footloose the musical
2) the last 5 years
3) oasis
4) michael jackson (weird..)
5) tool

Five things that make you happy.
1) hair
2) goodbye kisses
3) guitars
4) money (having lots of it...)
5) relax time

Five things that disgust you.
1) white trash
2) ugly hair
3) puke
4) when people are sweaty eww
5) smelly feet

Five things you can't live without.
1) friends.
2) money
3) hair
4) clothes
5) music

Five things you'll do when you complete this.
1) leave for guitar lesson
2) look at my new hair for the 1000th time
3) sleep later on
4) go out with dan and jay
5) listen to music

02:44 am: New shorter hair for Ryan weeeee

01:29 pm: A week from today I'll be in Cincinatti...SO EXCITED

Seriously I want to be there now...

I know it's not even far, and it's not the beach...but honestly I'd rather go to another big town city than go to a fuckin sand box.

I'm all about that busy commoted atmosphere

I love just walking around downtown Pittsburgh, and I can't wait to just go around downtown Cincinnati, because it's like one of the biggest cities in the country...

The 5 Most important cities in the country for me:

-New York
-Boston
-Cincinnati
-Chicago
-Pittsburgh

Those are like my favorite places in the world.

And I don't think this really counts as a downtown kind of city, but another one on the list is Los Angeles


So apparently Johnny Depp is doing a new movie, and he is playing Peter Pan? He looks weird though..he has really short hair i don't know if i like it...but I love that man. when I first saw the picture on EW, I thought it was a pic of him in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and I seriously screamed (ask mallory I did), but then i was upset because it wasn't but i was still excited cause it's him

The movies called I think "Finding Neverland" and it comes out in November!

I <3 Johnny Depp and Cincinnati!

06:17 pm:

My parents finally decided when we are going to go to cincinnati to look at the University of Cincinnati...and that is in 2 weeks.

So I'm kind of excited, but a part of me is kind of nervous because even though I say I'm so excited to go into college and move on in my life...a part of me still feels unsure and unready.  Another thing with colleges, is the auditions.  I've been being so hard on myself thinking about auditioning for these schools because in the field of Musical Theater, if your audition isn't great...your chances are slim on getting into that school because grades aren't what they're concerned with when it comes to performing schools.

Grades bring up another problem.  Schools look at your ability true, but scholarships are all about your grades...and my grades aren't exactly horrid, it's just I know I'm not going to get a big 20,000 scholarship, and my parents can't afford to send me to like NYU or some big school.  It's not even that they're having trouble with money, it's just after i go away to school, the next year my sister will be applying for college, and with both of us it'll cost alot either way.

I know I can't expect my parents to give me everything I wish...it's just things would be nice if it were that way.

So, I think I am ready to get out of highschool, I just think it comes down to second guessing myself...I need to start going with my instinct and not "trying" different things because after all, it's my life.

Alot of things have been bothering me and I just feel like I can't clear my head of it all.  My parents have really been bothering me and I guess it's just because i feel like I don't need to talk to them, and I dunno i guess a part of me can't stand to be around them, and they know it..which just makes things worse.  I try to stay out of the house or in my room as much as I can because seriously every second I'm around them we're arguing about something.  Today we had the stupidest arguement over pizza and even though it was stupid it still hurt me because I honestly don't enjoy fighting with them..I just can't help it.  it seems as if everything they say was said just to contradict the words coming out of mine.  Also when we fight, and I get in trouble, they say so many hurtful things and ground me from so much and i know half of it isn't true, or won't stick..but I just think about how much they say, and I wonder if they really would let themselves be as hateful to me as they say.  My mother is the worst, when she gets angry she says so many insulting things and just keeps making the list of things longer..but why?  Does she think that hurting me more is going to calm her down or make her happier?  I wonder sometimes.

Enough rambling even though I have other things on my mind, I'll express them later maybe.

04:37 pm: Sometimes i really hate being a shallow person because it usually depresses me more than it encourages me

I don't know why i always care about that kind of thing

11:42 pm:

( Joe's Crab Shack with my fam <3 )